A Shift Towards Conscious Activism
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Nostalgic with the temporal ..
Nostalgia tells us of another time when things were a little better, a little brighter, and a lot like home. But what is home if not engulfed in the heart, if not encapsulated in the moments that we share with one another. My problem with nostalgia is that it occupies our present moment, leaving us missing out on what is, because of what was. Nostalgia tells me that things tasted a little sweeter in times that occupied spaces before this one. Nostalgia reflects on memory dependent on a period so limited, the self is misled to realize that our time now is only temporal. Our infinite moments await what today writes for tomorrow. Yet, our infinite moments may suffer because of our inability to face up and walk against the norm ... or celebrate because a little sacrifice and devotional givings.
Our nostalgia should be for a time that stands tall in the finality of our existence. A longing for being. A need to be with the essence. A reminiscence in returning to Him.
Inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji'un ( إِنَّا لِلّهِ وَإِنَّـا إِلَيْهِ رَاجِعونَ ) Quran, Sura Al-Baqara, Verse 156
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Social display ... social suicide..
Characters forms words of persona's
admired, humored, engaged,
politically enraged and even emotionally sustained
in ideals and forms
in boxes and letters
that brings forth
meanings of truth or illusion
of light and darkness
in faces of individuals
lived with
and never seen
in spaces
open
vast
and unlimited
for anyone
or some.
Who you are
arranged in syllables of
rhythmic notions
dressed in illusory fragments
of I am .. or my this... and all by myself(s)
for whom?
Social display of
fraternities of we follow you
and we shall follow you back
if only you are part of a herd
meant to entertain
and engage
the self
or others in return
of words
characters
symbols
fitted neatly in
formats limited (thankfully)
to expressions of
what sometimes
should be kept within.
These contemplations of intonations
are merely submissions
or rather defiance
to committing social
suicide
to the self
for what is unsaid
is sometimes greater than
what is already spilt.
And while there's no use crying
over spilt milk
grab the mop
and move along now...
the show is almost over
thanks for allowing
such static to fill through you.
P.S. Please filter your water ... twitter followers .. and your comments ...
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Who are the Indigenous People today?
Today on Twitter, people were flipping their profile pictures upside down to support those without citizenship. We live in a world today more intrinsic and complex than ever before. Our borders are tighter as border-security focuses on keeping those (without citizenship / or unwanted refugees, stateless, "other" persons) out of their lands. It was less than a century ago that borders, countries and citizenship to a bounded land was in existence. More than ever, those whom were lost in the idenity/citizenship scuffle were the indigenous peoples, comprising over 350 million individuals and 5000 ehno-linguistic groups in the world today.
Who exactly are indigenous peoples?
According to Jose A. Martinez Cobo, the Special Rapporteur appointed in 1971 by UNHCR to conduct a study of indigenous peoples, recognized their "land-rootedness" as the primary marker of indigenous identity:
Indigenous communities, peoples and nations are those which, having a historical continuity with pre-invasion and pre-colonial societies that developed on their territories, consider themselves distinct from other sectors of the societies now prevailing in those territories, or parts of them. They form at present non-dominant sectors of society and are determined to preserve, develop and transmit to future generations their ancestral territories, and their ethnic identity, as the basis of their continued existence as peoples, in accordance with their own cultural patterns, social institutions and legal systems.Essentially, their fundamental survival as a community and as a distinctive people is inextricably tied to their right to occupy their traditional and original communities.
Furthermore, according to the UN on the Rights of Indigenous Peoples to the Sub-Commission on Prevention of Discrimination and Protection of Minorities ...
Article 3: Indigenous peoples have the right of self-determination. By virtue of that right they freely determine their political status and freely pursue their economic, social and cultural development.But as noted by Benedict Anderson's Imagined Communities and as discussed in, "Indigenous Peoples' Rights to Self-Determination and Territoriality" by Maivan Clech Lam:
A complex issue concerns the relationship between culture and citizenship. Since the French Revolution, modern states have tried to solidify their hold over citizens by merging the two affiliations -- one thick (culture), the other thin (citizenship). The attempt is misdirected in general, and especially unsuccessful in the case of indigenous peoples.Millions of people today are those that have been uprooted, forcefully displaced and even ethnically cleansed. Our recognition and the awareness of such a problematic sheds light unto those that deserve their ultimate human right and human dignity through simple recognition. It may be insufficient to simply "flip" our photos on Twitter ... but when international law can't bring it back ... a collective movement and will to stand with a just act will bring through an effect ...
As a twitter follower noted:
Monday, June 6, 2011
Refugees Awaiting Return .. Remembering Al-Nakba and Al-Naksa ..
UN Resolution 194: "Refugees wishing to return to their homes and live at peace with their neighbors should be permitted to do so at the earliest practicable date, and those wishing not to return should be compensated for their property."
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Living in the Diaspora as a Palestinian, home was always found in romantic meanings of a nation, far away from anything I grew up knowing. While, foreignness left me forging my own identity, those Palestinians, who live in the refugee camps are surrounded with a different meaning of belonging, of history, and of what it means to want to return home. For millions of Palestinians living in the refugee camps, the very symbolism of the camp was the reality of their obvious difference; their predicament; their inevitable problematic: politically, socially, psychologically and even physically through the spaces that surrounded and limited their very mobility. I talk about this more in my thesis: Intergenerational Differences of Identity...
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However, while so many stories resonate empty sheets with emotions and warm hearted realities of he-stories and her-stories, I'd like to share Ahmed's story with you ....
Ahmed Mohammed Qatawi: 78 year old 1948 first-generation refugee. Ahmed talked about his exiled journey from the village of Lid, when he was 17 years old. After sleeping under olive-trees, and eventually reaching Ramallah, where he lived scattered for months, he ended up in Zarka, in Jordan in 1949. Ahmed spoke of the refugee camp development, as he emotionally motioned to how he built every part of his tiny home in the camp; from what was a mere tent, to zinco-based housings, until 1981 when they were finally able to construct their homes out of concrete/ bricks. He spoke to me of his family, his children, his brothers and sisters ... and that even after years of looking back, he tells me of how proud he is to what the Palestinians made out of themselves, despite their circumstances. I asked Ahmed if he would go back if he had the chance and why he continues to live in the refugee camp, despite the fact that it doesn't provide him with any services and the fact that it doesn't benefit him anymore. He replied, "So long as the Israelis occupy our land, we'll never be able to return. There is nothing for us to do, but wait, we've waited for over 63 years, and no matter how much they pay me to give up my right to return, I would never do it. These camps are a reminder, every single day, both to us and the international community that we are still here, waiting to return, we're not going anywhere." Ahmed felt that the camps, were the very perpetual representation of the Palestinians International right to return to their homes and return to their lands. More than ever, Ahmed wasn't gullible to the political dynamics that play a large role to his current protracted situation, if anything, he was persistently aware of his place and role in the camp....
Today, as we witness thousands of Palestinians refugees marching towards the borders of Palestine, from Syria to Lebanon to Jordan, and those inside the West Bank and Gaza, I think about Ahmed, and his desire to return to a home, no longer occupied, but free again. Ahmed is only another refugee amidst so many others, with stories that carry more than these pages could ever hold.
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Political overload... Spiritual Ascension
Political journey's take us through a path
unpaved in it's structure
long in its ambition
wide in its avenues as people
enter from places
street corners, farmlands, alleyways, market-places and isolated shacks
alive in a voice empowered through an illumination
only joint in chants of iterated theoretical aspirations
ignited against angers of hatred, separation and greediness
joint in a hope for what takes it forward
steps that walk in shoes
awakened a million times too many from eyes
too hopeful to ever see
failure that meets the embrace of another
lost soul
in a struggle
deeper than the rivers inner waves
in breaths that prepare for tomorrows wakefulness
this day holds on to yesterday
with words that have gone silent
in their chatter
and laughter
...
the self finds space now
inside
internally it allows for a spiritual reflection suspected
in every heart broken or separated from puzzles too
articulate to unite
in meanings found only
when a greater goal is asserted
to be found in what comes next
in what holds us within
the greater picture of
what captures our minds in
souls that are birthed after
lost bodies creep away
bringing tears
to seek
His Ultimate Magnificence
turned in the direction
that leaves us bowing for
guidance that is lit
through His command
allowing for what is to be
despite all difficulties
we are left only to uplift our souls
with minds emptied from political affirmations
overloaded with happenings never really there
but through His embrace.
Life. Mind. Thought. Action. Lost. Lived. Felt. Submitted. Survived. Ascended.
Monday, May 23, 2011
Arab Spring, Revolution fever, youth power or just a shift in politics ..
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Friday, May 6, 2011
Captured bodies, Seeking Refuge ...
This Poem is dedicated to Palestinian children arbitrarily detained in Israeli prisons. And to those that continue to live in confined compounded places, in restricted lands, and torn refugee camps; at home and internally exiled simultaneously.
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Rubbles of dust carried between the boys feet,
rushing through narrow side streets
hitting his shoulders between the pavement walls,
scrapping the surfaces of his skin as he flees.
His body no longer holds control over him,
heels barely touch the muddy terrains
of this camp... cramped, tight, moving bodies
carried in the square parameters of their homes ...
permanently waiting,
temporarily en route,
in exile from the soils of their great-grand-mothers...
Hushing through the violent breaths
clouding his lungs, grueling in pain with every inhale,
his blackened face hides between
his bleeding knees that sting with every tear
dripping on the surface...
Like a bullet shot that tears the ear drums sound beat,
he jumps, in a flash, jetting to the next dark corner
providing haven,
giving shade,
temporarily frozen to gasp another breath,
terrified of his predestined conclusion...
he shuts his eyes, tightly gripping to the loose sands beneath him..
Silently motionless, body no longer sensing any pain..
his mind takes him afar, suppressed from this dark corner,
the light no longer hits his eyes to the conscious realities of now,
his cold body journey’s his soul to a new dimension concealed in space..
As he awakens from the subliminal uncounted lost moments of what was,
he is blinded by the flashing lights exposing
his lifeless body, to surrounding gates of steel..
surrounding him in every corner... right and left..
no where to turn, he stares mindlessly forward,
uttering no sound,
au fait to what awaits
the next act in this story line,
holding cue to the next scene,
holding his tongue to the voices
of the imprisoned character that stands still in him..
Without notice, he begins to feel again,
the slashes that sting his back, splitting open
the screams muted in him..
his eyes no longer veiled by the dazzles of the flashes,
he stares coldly at a young soldier,
smirking, emotionless, cold, vacantly empty..
of the dark destinies that this child holds..
No longer fighting, he surrenders,
against the chains encapsulating his sore wrists,
his tears cease to flow,
against the shields that guarded his soul
his body is left uncovered,
exposed,
abandoned,
dispensed to the darkness of the night..
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Falesteen
This poem was written on March 7th, 2009. Recently, after watching 'Miral', I pulled out this poem, reminding me of the time when I was denied entry into the West Bank. Miral, was more than just a movie that spoke to us of the continued protracted struggle Palestinians are hanging on to for over 63 years of occupation. It's about the struggle that lives on, of the Palestinians living inside in the midst of occupation, curfews, detentions, and mistreatment. This poem represents a tiny element of what Palestine, Falesteen means to me.
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In you I am
existing in the soils
growing in the very sands that witnessed the sacrifices of its roots
In you I am
preserved in the ashes -- allowing it to raise higher and stronger beyond the face of death
for the innocent beloved laughs -- that once hovered over the skies of Falesteen
In you I am
in the eyes that glistened dreams that spoke beyond bombs and bullets
rising beyond the trenches that is suffocating her
In you I am
eyes that only see straight to the walls
that testify the pain in the bullet holes that peaks through these frail curtains,
giving light to the darkness
In you I am
breathing a light that only sheds through in the falls of curfews
at the position of limited mobility --- a checkpoint questions my right to my nativeness
Identity number 56789039 -- sorry, A-rabs not allowed
invalid entry --- denied entrance -- stolen right to my al3awda
sorry ma’am -- security measures -- decision is not in our hands -- move along now
but where to? frozen in the inbounds of undesignated territories
inhaling the airs that cross border controls, checkpoints, interrogations and check ups
crossing over to calm my patience -- rest assure I will return, we will return
bewildered in the animosity of my existence -- I move along now, next window please
Citizenship ? ancestral origin? Religion? relations? reasons? denials of self-determined rights?
colonial imprints fill its memories of an indigenous right that yearns to return
digging through the layers that form the misconceptions of what forms that which make me
unaware that my search will retrieve the hidden destruction --
concealing slaughters that sting the aromatic surfaces of erased he-stories and her-stories
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Falesteen exists in you...
zaytoon -- dripping in the tears that feed its undeniably salient growth
pillars -- that read erased territories: Qatamon, Yafa - bride of Palestine, Haifa, Bir Il Sabi3, Barbara, - standing backbones -- Majdal, Khan Yunis, Gaza, Tulkarem, Ramllah, Nablus, Qalqilya..
on and on and on -- miles and miles your gracious body held me -- years before i was birthed
bounded by the umbilical cords of your soil, I am alive, re-defined, in existence
exiled -- a Diaspora -- protracted -- prolonged -- and still waiting,
never forgiving and never forgetting
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Today and everyday,
the Mediterranean captures a portrait of your stillness --
reflected off the hot sun that rays hope past the destitute of its struggle
hiding away with the departure of another exiled sunset...
and in the fading images of what was, what is, and what will be...
I am in you...
Friday, April 1, 2011
Reflections of the Almighty.
After visiting the Kaaba, one cannot help but reflect on the Greatness and Almightiness of God. This post speaks of the emotional magnitude that overwhelms one when really contemplating and reflecting on Allah, Subhanahu wata3ala.
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We cannot fathom what lies in the valleys of this pathway, that which ends with the promises that have been foretold to us by He who Has Created and Destined all things. We walk through our days with utter hypocrisy to what bequeaths us internally and what embodies our tenacious forms externally. In grasping knowledge filled in deep vast oceans, we will never suffice our minds with what it can only contingently hold; knowing that in the palms of His Mastery we are nothing, but weak slaves, quested to simply breath to please His Almighty Magnificence.
How do we stand, facing our souls in the mirrors of our hearts, where we will never be free until we completely and sincerely submit to His Divinity? Yet, how are we able to do that when all we are consumed with is the egoic drive that speeds our minds within a perplexed battlefield that consume our beings with imposed expectations of our sedated secularized societies.
It is only in the face of loss, the realities of death and the end of what holds dear in the temporal moments of these days, that we are careful to err, more conscious to speak and begin to repeatedly remember the Creator in His Utmost Magnificence.
We are lost in the desires of highs and lows that form our bodies and minds with molded conceptions of what defines our selves through material gains and losses, subjective titles, enforced hierarchies of subjugated beings and inner ascension or deficiency of our spiritual standings with His Almighty.
We fail to discipline our caprice due to poor control and order to frame our limitations to that of foreverness of His unfathomable promised Afterlife.
And in all ways to define our relations to Him, we can never come close to comprehend our value, in it’s tiniest form until we are faced with the end of the road, the final steps, the last breaths ..
In all feelings and emotions that could be imagined when held to His Divinity, we lose ourselves, absenting words, shedding our skins of any clothed masks of our Selves, and are left to simply be ... bare
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Reflecting on the rippling "Revolutionary" effects in the Arab World.
Who would have known that in such a short span, decade-long dictators would be toppled down, giving the people the power to speak out and take control of their own political destiny. Who would have known that years of colonial, and imperial representations of the people would be dismantled through a collective body of people, joined together with one voice. Constructions of the Orient are tabula rasa, no longer inferred. For there are no "Clashes of Civilization". There are no "apolitical" bodies incapable of handling "democracy". There are no uneducated, incompetent minds willing to stay silent. There are no longer Islamophobic or racial assertions to blame citizens for their inability in taking political and individual action unto themselves. Who would have known, that after December 17th, 2010, a personal self-immolation, sparked by desperation, frustration, humiliation and harassment, that the Middle East would never be the same again.
The reasons for such actions and reactions are not because people are randomly trying to replicate Tunisia's and Egypt's successful ousting of their long-standing dictators, but because Tunisia and Egypt provided a voice, for millions of people who have been silent for far too long. Bouazizi's act of rage, brought out years of swallowed sorrows and frustrations in the citizen's nation-state.
Essentially, for some countries, like Syria, Libya, Bahrain, Yemen and the like, the call for some people, is not simply or merely a call for a revolution, but a call for change; a call for freedom; a call for effective reform; a call for deconstructing unjust tribal control; a call for fair and moral dealings; a call for an obligatory recognition for citizens rights; a call against spacial restrictions; a call against political limitations; a call against class division and class-based control; and a call for human rights in its very primitive nature et al ...
Protests, calls for reforms, demands for change, active community involvements, etc., are not demands against the nation, but against despotic or corrupt state-bodies. Those who speak out are not against their country. Those who speak out are seeking the betterment and the greater fulfillment of their country, now, tomorrow and for the future generations to come. Those who speak out, do so, because silence maintains a deaf stability hesitant to reacting to change, in fear that the status-quo might be affected. Those who act out, do so, because they have the right to do so; because freedom of speech is not limited to theoretical assumptions and rhetorical assertions. And because citizens are not simply absent subjects.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
"Baby", my nanny... and my lingering memories of her ...
Monday, March 14, 2011
The Politicization of Emotions
Split into who's who we,
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Voiceless Words: Contemplating Rumi: Wanderings of the Mind
Rumi says: "There is a voice that doesn't use words." ...
And there are words that at times find a shyness in explications that which is bound to the mysteries of the mind and soulful wanderings. It's ironic how our mind tackles our hearts in shackles for the enjoyment of control, or is it the other way around, mind you, we continue to enslave our selves to boundaries beyond our bounds, all without accepting that we have already been sold to a Master, He who is the Origin, the Creator of our very subsisting dependence unto the Master, that which we live for, work for, love for and even die for, but it seems that in the day where slave-hood is engrossed in large distracting billboards and capitalistic material domination, our minds fools us to believe that we are free, without chains that bound us to selling our thoughts, our minds, our bodies, our labour and our values. Yet again, who do we live for? "There is a voice that doesn't use words.", for at times words are not worthy enough to be uttered in the vicinity of the Maker, the Holder, the Omnipotent.... yet still, yet again, we lose shame, lose fear, lose our place in this world to the lights that blind us into assuming that which isn't so.
So what? why bother? Because our inability to subjugate our minds to the real-ness of what surrounds us, to bring back to the ground that which flies higher than it can before realizing it flies with no wings in place, continues to chain their minds to constricted make-ups of our society. And with this we push to guard, question, act and react to that which forms our very identities and constructs.
Rumi asks one to use silence as a way to deconstruct the mysteries behind the voiceless words, to enable the digger room to dig without interruption of speech. But only in the submission to nothingness, to the surrender of a greater Holiness, we are truly free, enabled to once again return to the core of our being, and the reason of our existence; for nothing is without what forms its creation and its precise creation is no more than formed through His creation.
For true guidance, in effect, finds true pleasure in the characters the He names Himself, All-Mighty and Majestic; through patience, through generosity, through strength, and through light we are lifted from weakness, discontent, lifelessness and depressions; for the possession of good character is greater than the possession of great wealth. As such, we learn not to use the over-used, often over-rated means of words to move us, guide us and lift us from the places we are at. Regrettably, our tongues continue to roll in un-conspicuous forms that leave us haunted and anguished by the consequential damage that eats through our flesh.
Leaving us to return to the voiceless words that swim in the waters of our souls, warmly suited by our hearts for the pleasures of our poetic embrace.
Silence.
... leaving me only to ... breath a breath of many more breaths......